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I see anything which puts us more in touch with our real-world sensory experience [as a positive thing].
I never tried to go too deep into neurochemistry. I've read about the chemicals but I'm lousy at memorizing and recalling what chemicals does what.As a virgin and trying to get out from an out of touch with reality framework I see great benefit with being able to let go of porn and masturbating. The thing is, I noticed these last few days that I wasn't just addicted to porn (I got a lot of sexual fantasies, and I urged myself to check a pornsite for just another video) - but even more, I started feeling a general and unsettling discomfort from not having released."My mind actually thinks I want to release to women that do not exist, to fantasies that are not happening." For any sane person, that should just not be okay. (FYI: I've been masturbating 3-5x a week since I learned about it, never actually considered that there were negatives.)
Attitude towards this whole thing is the most important aspect.. If I did this to become X or Y I would ALWAYS be dissapointed because fantasy about the future will never match up to reality or worse I'd delude myself thinking I have actually made some progress.
My point is that I had built up this whole idea where I viewed myself as fully charged when I hadn't fapped for say 2 weeks, and drained and fatigued for 4-5 days after fapping, I always had this creeping thought "Oh I fapped 4 days ago, I'm weak now".
Sexual energy is the same as creative energy. Get a habit of doing something which is not pre-meditated and without rules. You could get a pack of crayons and PLAY with them for just five minutes each day, and see what happens. Your attention will naturally move to more creative endeavors. Remember when you were a kid and you played with some toys? This is the kind of PLAY I'm talking about. Not "Ok Now I'm going to play with crayons for 5 minutes so I can transform sexual energy into creative energy and become the worlds greatest whatever". Play is when you do whatever you are doing only for the sake of doing just that!! There are no musts or should's involved.
That is the double-edged sword in all belief systems based on ritual. It especially applies to things like drugs. "I can do whatever I want when I'm on my tramadol!"..."Oh no, I've run out of tramadol!". Or even worse: "Oh no, the tramadol isn't working any more!"The point is that whatever change did occur (if any at all), the human brain has this tendency to magnify this change x100 by putting all its focus and awareness into it, and more importantly by assuming X, Y and Z are all connected to the change, even when they're not: "I talked to more women this week. It must be the no fapping!"Maybe there is some grain of truth to it. But the mind, no doubt, is creating a massive percentage of this effect.
I have been excited by the idea of "sexual success" in the ego sense when I came across girls who liked me, but I didn't actually "want" to fuck them. In fact, I feel that I have never had the feeling of actually wanting to fuck someone just for the sake of it. To put it more succinctly, I feel like I have never "sexually imprinted" on human beings in general.
Quote from: X2F01 on September 12, 2012, 07:36:47 PMI have been excited by the idea of "sexual success" in the ego sense when I came across girls who liked me, but I didn't actually "want" to fuck them. In fact, I feel that I have never had the feeling of actually wanting to fuck someone just for the sake of it. To put it more succinctly, I feel like I have never "sexually imprinted" on human beings in general.Dude, I covered sexual imprinting in one of my recent PMs to you. Please re-read it. It set out the likely parameters required to create a sexual imprint. It's nothing to do with porn use.
I have quite an interest into this topic as well. Any possibility you would flesh out a separate post about it? Or perhaps you have already discussed this somewhere else?